Hey Bleu Bells, 💙

Let’s get real this week, shall we? I’m officially four weeks postpartum, and it’s been a rollercoaster – and not the fun kind. This week, I felt like absolute shit, to put it lightly. I had a plan – a solid plan, mind you – to follow through with postpartum pregnancy ab workouts on YouTube. You know when you have everything mapped out, and then… life happens? Yeah, that was me this week. And let me tell you, when you don’t follow through with a plan, it hits you in the gut – literally and emotionally.

I didn’t do a single ab workout I planned, and now I feel extra bloated and sluggish. My body didn’t feel like my own this week. It’s like I’m stuck in this weird limbo where I’m super self-conscious about my stomach. I feel like I haven’t made any progress with weight loss, and it’s frustrating as hell. 😩

I have lost weight since the pregnancy, but I want a flat stomach like yesterday. I know this takes time, and it does not happen overnight. It also doesn’t magically disappear without you putting in the work! Honestly, the work is hard for me now because I fixate on how I want to look so bad that I become overwhelmed and shut down. I am no longer the same Shay who can fast all day, work, work out, wear a sports bra with workout pants, and go to Target and HEB confidently. It takes me longer to get dressed, and I pay extra attention to what I wear in public. Before this journey, it could have taken me less than 10 minutes to get dressed and out the door! I wore what I wanted anytime and felt comfortable with my body.

And on top of all that, I’m not producing enough breast milk to keep up with Sariah. 😔 Not eating enough certainly isn’t helping either, and I’m feeling defeated – like I’m in this bad space where I’m not making the progress I want. Between trying to maintain a sleep schedule for Sariah, keeping up with day-to-day “new mom life,” and wrapping my head around this new body, I’m learning to navigate… I’m struggling, y’all. 💔

It’s a lot. I feel like I’m wasting towels and robes, dreading looking at myself in the mirror because I still feel (and look) like I’m pregnant. And honestly, I’m seeing someone different in the mirror – someone I need to address more aggressively for my peace of mind. But you know what? This is the reality of postpartum. It’s not all bounce-back bodies and flat abs – it’s messy, emotional, and often overwhelming.

But I’m here, sharing my journey's real ups and downs with you because I know I’m not alone. Bleu Bells, if you’ve been through this, I’d love to hear your stories, tips, or even a bit of encouragement. We’ll push through this together because there’s still hope of getting back on track deep down. 💪🏽

Check out my weekly Sariah & Shay YouTube videos below! We are officially adding videos to my channel, Shaybleu, on our journey as mother and daughter, learning this new chapter together. Please like and subscribe if you enjoy the content! And don’t forget to comment and leave feedback! You know I love hearing your voices and support. You all give me the strength and confidence to keep going!

Stay tuned for more updates on this ongoing journey and how I plan to shake things up next week! 💙

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