Hey Bleu Bells,

It’s officially week 5 of this crazy, beautiful ride called motherhood, and let me tell you, being a mother is not for the weak. Whew, child! This life right here? It’s so fulfilling, but my baby Sariah is defeating me at night! This little queen is running the show, and let me be real—she’s got me wrapped around her tiny little fingers.

Sariah has us all up at night, and I won’t even lie—she’s spoiled already. 😅 But you know what? I wouldn’t change a single thing. The love and support she’s receiving from her family is something I can’t even put into words. She’s surrounded by so much love, and it's like a breath of fresh air for everyone who meets her. That little smile and how she looks at me melts me every time.

Sariah and My Parents

This was one of the most memorable moments I will have in my life with my mother. I cry every time I see this picture of them.

Her sleeping buddy. Love this moment with her and my dad.

She fell right asleep. Love was in the air.

But here’s the real tea: she’s put the pressure on me to get my shit together! She’s not even two months old, and she’s already got me rethinking everything. I swear, she is the most pressure I’ve ever felt. Even on those nights when she’s crying for two hours straight before finally falling asleep, I wake up in the morning and look into her eyes, and it’s like looking at my own reflection. She’s a mini-me, and I must step up significantly for her.

Now, I’m in full mommy mode. OK, what can I set up for her future? What investment accounts can I open for her? A savings account? 529 plans? I need to find a financial advisor ASAP. And then I’m over here. Let’s get her into modeling! Y’all, I’m trying to set her up now. I’m thinking long-term because the time is NOW.

This smile warms my heart every time. My little MaMa

I don’t want to mess this up. Sariah deserves the world and more, and I want to pave a path for her that she can walk on with pride and then run on as she gets older. I’m already thinking about swimming lessons, gymnastics, track, how to keep her health in check—everything! And I realize that if I want her to be capable of whatever she sets her mind to, I need to model that for her. I need to keep myself together to show her firsthand that fear is the only thing that can hold her back—and even that can be conquered.

I want so much more for her than I ever had. I want her to have parents who communicate openly, believe in her, and encourage her to chase her dreams passionately. Sariah isn’t just a new addition to the family; she’s here to continue the legacy Calvin and I are building and, more importantly, to create one of her own.

It’s Sariah’s world, and I’m just trying to be the best mom I can be for her.

Sariah’s Newborn Photo Shoot!!!

I had the best experience with Sariah in her newborn photo shoot; Paloma Schell was amazing! She was perfect with Sariah. I could not ask for a better photographer!! Please check out her website below.

Koch & Schell